Sunday, February 22, 2009

stress, procrastination, frustrations & disappointments

Lately, I seemed to be lost and absent-minded. I seemed to have lost my motivation in everything that I do. I seemed to have lost motivation on all my goals. I really want to lose weight. I want to be responsible and more dedicated in my work. I don't want to procrastinate. But I've seemed to be losing the battle :(

Lately, I've been in denial. I always say I'm okay. But deep down inside I'm not. Frustrations and disappointments are eating out my motivation to work harder on all my new year's resolution. Why does it seem so hard to change? I am too lazy to change, but I am no longer happy with what's happening to my life lately. This is not good. This is not me.

Maybe I'm just stressed. Who would not be? There are a lot of things which keeps on bugging me. The newly discovered health problem. The really tight budget. The mismanaged weight. The backlogs and messy office table. All negatives :( Where are the positives?

I want to start all over again with my weight loss goal. I want to be more dedicated and responsible both in school and work. I want to be organized (and I badly need help on this one!). I want to reconnect my spiritual being with God. I REALLY THINK this could help me. And I also think that I need to have a one day break to sort out everything. When can I have that break?

Can someone help me out please?

Sunday, February 15, 2009

resolutions for next year

You Should Make 8 Resolutions

Lose Weight

Save Money

Get a Better Job

Get Fit

Eat Right

Reduce Stress Overall

Volunteer to Help Others

Spend More Time With Family and Friends

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

My ColorGenics Profile

Got the link from Nang Tina's blog. So out of boredom, I tried to visit the link and also tried to generate my own ColorGenics profile.  Here it goes:  

Name: jireh
Date: 2/10/2009
Colorgenics Number: 54710236

See yourself as others see you...

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.

You are in need of rest, some peace and quiet. You feel the need to be close to that someone special, that someone who can give you that special consideration and unquestioning affection that you seek. If you don't find that 'special someone' and resolve your problems very soon, you are liable to become extremely introverted and cut yourself off from society.

You feel truly deprived - not getting your fair share, but you have accepted the fact that that is the way things are at this time and that it is prudent to let matters slide and not hit your head against the wall -so conform and agree for a while. Accept the situation - nothing can last forever.

The tension that you are experiencing at this time is perhaps due to physical and/or mental frustration. It would appear that you are not appreciated and as a consequence, the situation is most disagreeable. You seek personal recognition and the appreciation of others to compensate for the lack of like minded people with whom to ally yourself. You would like to surrender and merge with others but your inherent self-restraint makes it difficult for you to open up. This disturbs you as you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You want to be liked, admired and appreciated for yourself.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.