The Consequences of Being Independent...

Back in Bacolod, I used to be the princess of our family. I don't do the laundry nor cook for our lunch and dinner. I seldom iron my clothes if the situation just call for it. Neither do I clean the comfort room and the bathroom. I used to be a lazy brat who doesn't even think of helping even just watering the plants nor feeding my pets.
Now in Davao, I'm someone who I never used to be. A different me? Nah! It's still me. The same old me. The only difference is that I do the laundry, iron my clothes, prepare meal for me and my officemates and even clean the comfort room and the bathroom. I even wake up on my own now (with the help of course of my phone's alarm clock! thank God!).
It's not that hard considering I'm working for 9 hours a day (except on Fridays and Saturdays). But why do I find doing those chores too hard and too tiring before? Everytime my grandma or mom would ask me to iron the clothes or even just prepare the food she bought for our lunch, I would frown because I really don't enjoy doing those things. It seems to be so ironic. I really do enjoy the feeling of cooking and preparing our meals. Each of us in the office takes turn to cook for our lunch and dinner for each day. There were some failures but we just laughed over the palpak menu. It's still edible anyway. Hehehe..
During my first week here, I really demanded for a budget from my mother for me to buy the stuff that I need to make my room livable. Stuffs like hangers for my clothes, curtains, containers for food and other personal butingtings, laundry basket and even a sidetable. But the sidetable or night table is way too high for my budget, i'll make use of the monobloc chair for the meantime.

Here's some pics of my room inside our company staffhouse.
Everyday, I'm learning, both in managing and improving my career and in living each and every day of my life being far away from my family. And i'm really enjoying every minute of my independence. A friend told me over e-mail that I'll be missing every bits and pieces of Bacolod sooner but I don't mind at all. I'll eventually find ways for me to overcome homesickness and loneliness. It depends on the way I deal with it. Being happy is a personal choice. c",)
Thanks mom for setting me free and for believing in me and thank you so much dear God for this second chance.

My Bestfriend's Wedding

Yesterday I cried, yes, i cried so hard. Foolish me! My closest friend and one of my best buds is planning to settle down next month. So why did I cry? I just can't see myself not attending the most important event in her life! I have to be there but. . . . . it would cost me much! A round trip ticket would cost me almost my one month salary. One of our barkada called me up and told me that she will talk to the rest of the gang regarding my plane ticket. She want the group to shoulder my one way ticket so that I would only pay for the other half. Isn't she generous enough? I know she loves me that much! hehehehe c",) Thanks mabs! But I really don't want to let them shoulder the expense. I'm earning anyway. All I need is someone to let me borrow the money for half of my roundtrip ticket or else my savings account will be closed by the bank.
I texted our Area Manager earlier this morning. She's on leave right now and I can't wait for next week to come to ask permission from her that I really need to go home next month even just only for a few days. I told her that it's my bestfriend's wedding. And guess what!?!? She allowed me to go home! Whew! I was kind of nervous before texting. I was expecting for a negative response. Now, my only problem is my roundtrip ticket!
Enough of that, the problem will be solved later. Maebelle promised to call me later again.
Going back to the topic of settling down, I first freaked out after reading my friend's text message that she's getting married next month. Too soon??? Why rush??? Are you pregnant??? As in! hahaha.. All those questions were answered. She's not pregnant FYI. They just can't wait to be with each other's arm. Even though she's still too young to settle down, I am really happy for her and I'm wishing her all the happiness and luck in the world. I myself would prefer settling down at an early age. I want to have kids at an early age for me to really enjoy the happiness of being a mom (hala oi! ako ni?).
Anyways, enough of those stuff. I'm not feeling well. I've been sneezing since this morning. I might be down to a flu. Oh God please let me stay away from flu :(
Before I forget, special thanks to my very pretty aunt, Tita Mila, for sponsoring my Friendster Blog Upgrade. Yey! She upgraded my account so that I can upload more pictures. Thanks a lot tita! I owe you one.
That's all for now. I have to rest early. c",)

happy & contented...

It's my 6th day here in Davao. Homesick? Me? Nah! I'm having fun here with my work, with my officemates and with the people inside our staff house. I'm enjoying the feeling of being independent. I'm still relying though on my mom for my allowance since I haven't got any savings for me to spend here. It's okay, I'll eventually manage to save starting next week. Yeah! Next week, I'm gonna have my first paycheck! wehehehe... I'm trying to resist temptation! I have so many stuffs to buy for my room first before anything else.
That's all for now. I'm just happy and contented with what's happening in my life right now. I spent 3 months searching and praying for the right job for me. It came to a point that I would just get depressed thinking no company would accept me. But come to think of it, when God closes a door, He indeed opens a window. He gave me another chance for me to prove that I can stand up again and change for the better. This is a challenge for me and I will never give up =) Coz I know God loves me just as much as I do.

finally...

Yes... finally... I was able to find a good job where I can settle for the rest of my life... hmmmm... maybe not for the rest of my life, but I'm very sure that I'll stay longer here... longer than four months.. yeah!
Being assigned here in Davao City is not that bad at all, i love the job offer... =) and i like my office mates... i really feel at home here... =)

struggle

jobless again... longest time worked??? four months!!! yeaaaah!!! 4 as in F-O-U-R...
i'm still the same old me... i thought i can handle my emotions well... but up to now, i still don't know how to deal with it... =(
this is me... the childish-22yearold-soon-to-be-23-spoiledbrat!!!!
i don't know how to be patient...
i don't know how to deal with different kind of people...
i get easily affected...
when i'm not happy with what i'm doing, i easily give up...
i'm struggling to change my attitude... i want to stay longer in a job... i am not contented!!!! =(
Life is indeed a struggle... and i am impatient!
hmmmm...
anyone? comment??
i know that the problem is with me... not with the situation... not with my coworkers... not with the type of job i've been into... not with the bosses and supervisors... not with the salary...
solution??
I HAVE TO CHANGE MY ATTITUDE!
I HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO DEAL WITH DIFFERENT KIND OF PEOPLE!
I HAVE TO BE CONTENTED!
I HAVE TO HAVE PATIENT!
AND I NEED TO LOVE MYSELF...
need i say more???